Wow where is the time going?? I haven't blogged in awhile. One more week and Shane leaves..:( Yesterday we had a small barbecue here at the house with friends of his. A few more showed up that didn't make my nuisance picture taking.. lucky them!!! All in all I think Shane really enjoyed the get together and it meant alot to have his friends here to say good luck. I think the friendships here will be missed. Steve ordered a yummy cake... to which I accidentally put my finger in before it was even cut into!! Could've died. I was taking it out of the box carefully... moving onto the dining room table, sat it down and for some reason my finger slipped and there it went into the side of the cake... LOL. Story of my life!!! The cake was very yummy though!! White cake with white buttercream frosting.. MY FAVORITE! Steve invited his parents over... well if you have read my blogs you know that last Thanksgiving his mom had to ruin my day talking politics and religion. Well yesterday she just had to put in her two cents on "WHY WOULD YOU EVER ORDER A WHITE CAKE..... I ALWAYS ORDER CHOCOLATE!!!" UMMM... excuse me??? Did you pay for it?? Sometimes its better to keep ones mouth shut!!! Then as all the boys were together at the dining room table one had to leave, so he said his good byes. As he walked out the door Steve's dad said... WOW he sure looks a hell of a lot better since he lost weight!! Now in a family setting that's fine...but in front of the kids friends??? OH MY!! What happened to if you don't have nothin nice to say don't say nothin at all??? Didn't they watch BAMBI??? lol Anyways.... all in all the day was nice and I am pooped.
I finally got a nice pic of Laresa and Seth!! She has been sick all week with a sinus infection and thinks she looks horrible ( I wish I looked so horrible!!) but I couldn't resist taking the picture. The two of them don't come over together very often so I clicked a pic!!
Today might very well be a day to get a patriotic doll done I have been working on. I need to focus on my sewing and get my mind off of other things depressing. So onward I go...take each day and dread the countdown!!!

Well today I finally finished a Santa..with a patriotic touch to it. Gosh I would so much rather make Santa's all year than anything else... guess that's where my heart really is. I have more naked ones laying on the floor and some that are dressed and boxed waiting for the holidays to arrive... blink and they will be here no doubt!!

The days are going fast and my son has a countdown going. I myself like to not think about it , yet I find myself thinking of the day we make the drive up to Portland, get a motel room have one day together and then he will be off. I play it over and over in my head. What I should say?? Should I try my hardest not to cry?? LOL IMPOSSIBLE!! I know I need to reassure him I am proud of him first and foremost... its just going to be tough. My husband will be off to a memorial golf tournament that weekend and then off to a fire conference that whole week so I will be here alone. Maybe that's a good thing, no one asking me if I'm okay. I will no doubt do the crying on his bed like I did when he left for college and looking at his clothes etc. My cats will all think I'm nuts... Okay... that's enough I need to stop thinking!!!

On another note. Brian is back in the hospital having another round of treatment. His lesions have shrunk since the last round and they are moving forward with more. HE IS GOING TO BEAT THIS!!! So again prayers are very much appreciated for him and his family. My sister Rhonda sent this blog link to me earlier today. They had their family photos taken and they look wonderful!!! Brian looks great and well the family together is a blessing...

I have seven naked doll bodies laying here waiting for paint to dry on their shoes!!! I see progress!!! Three Santa bodies are naked and need clothes in the worst way and I am working on a special order Santa. So I have been busy.... of course they aren't dressed and that's where my brain seems to not function these days... So I will close for tonight... work on a special order and hopefully make some progress on it... tomorrows a new day!!!

Adele was finished today and listed on ebay!! I was asked if I am coming out of my funk?? LOL. I can't say I am, as the ideas aren't flowing.. not even sure day to day what I am going to do or create. I'd like to wake up one morning and have ideas flowing... ideas of things to make no one has seen. Just to BE CREATIVE!! But in turn I struggle and maybe that is normal for artists I don't know....
I started to work on my items for the WSOAPP shoppe. Crossing my fingers to stay focused in this sewing room. We have wet drippy weather outside/thunderstorms so I'm not biting the bit to get in the yard to work. I think I've just got alot going on in my head these days.

I was going downstairs to do laundry and noticed a piece of paper folded up on the floor. Not sure why I unfolded it as I normally just throw paper away..I hate paper!! But... I unfolded it to find this note.... Something Shane had written years ago, signed on the back To: Mother From: Shane . With him leaving I can't tell you what it means to find this at such a strange time out of nowhere. Kinda like it was mean't to be as I haven't a clue how it got down on the floor. I vaguely remember this given to me years ago on Valentines Day... This little piece of paper is so special now!!! I make myself sick thinking about him leaving so I try to put it out of my head but truthfully I'm not doing a very good job at it!

Yesterday I went to my doctors office just to stop in and request a prescription change to a generic hormone. I've been paying $23.89 a month for my hormones and wanted a cheaper one. So I go in rather than calling and being put on hold etc. I proceed to tell the desk clerk what I was asking and she said would you like to see him today? I said sure!! Well that requires I go back downstairs and check in.. and give my $25.00 copay!!! UGH crap but I do it.... About 45 minutes later I finally get called in a room.... get my blood pressure taken 122/76. Great,,, I'm pleased. Doctor comes in and asks me what is wrong and what can he do to help me. LOL I tell him I just wanted a prescription change to which he apologizes for the girls making me get an appointment... Too late the money was gone by then! I love to pay money to just TALK to someone!!! Anyways...he changes my prescription and lets me know I don't have to have paps etc anymore and my risk for breast cancer is very slim BUT.... I probably should go have that mammogram just to be safe... Oh special!!! So I get to dread June 12th now.. Crap right on top of Shane leaving I have to dread something else! Now I know,, its really no big thing, just like going to the dentist is no big thing. But I hate anything that changes my days.. I like getting up in the morning and doing what I want when I want... I don't like appointments unless its for coffee with a friend! So I will be complaining about this boob squishing til the 12th passes!!! I did get a prescription for $3.33 though so all was not bad!!!
Nothing else much going on here... I need to get busy and get this brain working!!! Have a wonderful day!!

I don't want to turn the page today!! ITS JUNE on the calendar!!! Where have the months gone?? This is my dreaded month.... the month I know I should be happy about. My son going off into the Air Force, career path, financial security for him. BUT....... I'm selfish, I don't want him to leave me... I could have him live in our home forever right?? Reality check, I need to let him move on with his life, he is excited about his future and he does need to grow up and be a man. I gotta keep telling myself He will be fine and I will be fine in time and HE is making the right choice. So I will walk to the wall and turn the page.. each day will get harder til I know he is in San Antonio safe then its in Gods hands.
So other than a slap in the face today, a reality check I did manage to finally finish one doll and list on ebay. Miracles still happen!! Still in a funk I cant get out of... I need a swift kick in the bottom!!! The weather is drippy with rain on the way so maybe I will sit in this room today and work on dressing the naked dolls.... Its a thought anyways!!!

Well gosh it's friday already and where did this week go? Or should I say where has this month gone? 23 more days and Shane leaves for the Air Force.... sad, excited, apprehensive are all feelings I feel. I know its best for him to go, to grow up, to have a career and succeede in life but I am MOM and as a mom you want your child or children to be near you always. I have been mom and dad to both of them through their young years and have to say they have been my best friends at times, we have shared alot together. So Shane leaving will be very difficult for me. I gotta keep thinking about the positives!! I went to load pics from my camera and forgot that mom and I had gone to Mingus Park here in town and walked around it before they left. There were baby ducks that were just adorable until some dumb little bratty kid thought he needed to come in and chase them... oh was I pissed!!! A beautiful swan was under the Choshi bridge just chillin.Mom and I didn't take any bread to feed the ducks..... Last time Laresa and I went walking around the park we were chased by the retarded geese... with their mouths open like they were going to take a chunk out of your leg or whatever appendage they could catch up to first. Scared the daylights out of us so I was a bit leary of feeding them and having them fighting around us.

On another note... Last night after work my husband rang the doorbell. Now he has a set of keys and couldn't understand why the heck I was having to put down my sewing to go down the stairs to open the front door. But when I did open it there sat my new vaccum!!! I have wanted a Dyson for over a year now!!! With 5 indoor cats I needed it!!! Wow what a nice vaccum... I love it!!!!

And yes... I mentioned my sewing. I actually have a doll dressed this evening!!! She even has hair!!! With hopes tomorrow I will finish her and get her listed. Its been so long without creating I'm still having a hard time staying focused. I mowed the lawn today just to be outside in the nice weather. Maybe with rain on the way next week I will get the bug out of my system to be outside. Maybe???

We arrived home from Orlando about 3 am Saturday and mom and dad arrived later that evening!! As one can imagine I went into fast clean mode! We had a very nice visit with mom and dad. Sunday we were off to church and then up to Gold and Silver Falls. I had never been there and heard so much about it....well worth the drive!! Beautiful up there!!! I felt bad that mom had to climb up the trails with a bad knee... Mom you need to go to the doctor!! Monday we were off to the ocean and Shore Acres. Unreal weather we have had!! Blue skies and no rain!! I think mom and dad enjoyed the temps. The ocean was exceptionally calm... Great photo ops that I haven't had a chance to have with mom and dad in along time.

Tuesday Dad,Mom and I went to town to local antique stores. I didn't find much other than two wool blankets that will make wonderful Santa suits. It was a nice day, I just feel bad I didn't cook any wonderful meals while my parents were visting. Dad eats leftovers and seemed he lived for days off the turkey and ham I made earlier. Sorry mom I don't do well in the cooking department.. LOL!!! Last night Dad took time to take photos. Shane will be off for the Air Force next month and this will be the last time they see him for some time.

Now I need to be busy sewing again. Seems the naked doll bodies have grown accustomed to no clothing... and I kinda am at a loss as to what to do with them all. I need a fire lit under my rearend to get motivated. I had really good intentions to sew after mom and dad left. That hasn't happened. Seems I wasted my day away just sitting...SOOOooo..... Tomorrow I vow to be productive!!!

Wow all in all yesterday turned out to be a pretty decent day. The sun was peaking out and we actually went to the park without plastic parkas... Rode quite a few more rides but never got on one of the large roller coasters... when I had convinced myself it was a do or die and might as well bite the bullet and go, Shane said maybe tomorrow!! LOL We then had a nice lunch at The Nascar Sports Grille... great food!!
Getting ready to leave the park I piped up and said we should do the Terminator show.... So we go in... wait the 40 minutes in line. Go into the show, which was very good, and when we got back outside it was pouring.... and I mean just pouring!!! Here I am in my American eagle leather flip flops... walking through rain and puddles... my capris were soaked, my hair a mess and just wanting to get back to our condo!!! Our driver came to pick us up quickly in time to watch the electric storm all the way back to the condo unit. Thunder clapped and cracked so loud you'd feel it in the SUV. Unreal weather!! Again I took a pic out the window... MORE RAIN!!!
BUT.... What about AMERICAN IDOL!!! WOW I jumped so fast off the couch when they announced Kris the winner!! I am so Happy!!! Although the 2 hour ordeal to get to the ending results were quite painful at times to listen to the outcome was right!! Kris sang wonderful with Keith Urban... On the other hand Adam about made me puke singing with one of my high school favs KISS. Hell those are 50 year old men up there with make up on... and there is another freak alongside them screeching in his platform boots. Quite fitting I must say. As you can tell... I was NEVER and will NEVER be an Adam Lambert fan..... I love and have always loved rock music but what I heard out of his mouth made my stomach turn... GLAMROCK is nothing I enjoy!! I'm very happy for Kris and his wife and family... He will be a success no doubt!!
Today we got up and did our owners meeting... okay that wasn't pleasant either!!! After doing one in Maui I swore Id never go to another!!! But they assured us it was to just go over new properties blah blah. NO high pressure sales etc... BULLSHIT!! After 2 hours of listening and then voices raising of my husband and the woman across the table I wanted to crawl under the table and disappear!! Finally Steve blatantly said NO period and we left. OFF to the outlets to shop!!! I found a great deal on a Columbia jacket so was quite pleased. On the way back to our condo we stopped at the Macaroni Grille and ate dinner. I think the best dinner I've had on the trip!!! While walking back in the nice windy weather (NO RAIN yet today!!) we looked off to the left of the sidewalk and there layed a small alligator.... UNREAL for us living on the west coast. No wonder they post these signs all around the condo pond outside!!! Tomorrow is our day of departure!!! Of course not til 6:20pm so will head to another Outlet shopping center in the morning and then we are back to the airport!!! If by chance this blog is a little haphazard I am posting from my mini laptop and on my end it all looks great...not sure on a regular screen if its messed up or not.... so please forgive me!!